After I finish my coffee I decide to go back to my room and write a little.  I take out my notebook from Chem class (which I have turned into a journal for all my feelings and shit.)  I page through it for a little scanning every page.  I come across the one page back from taht fateful day when I first met Billy in Chem class.

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I love Benji with all my heart.  He is the only person in the world that I have feelings this strong for.  I love him soo much...
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Oh man, I am so obsessed!  AFter that I followed Billy around the rest of the day.  I could tell that Benji liked him.  BEnji has always been so ovbious about that.  THat's why I was late.  I was trying to find out what Billy did after school.  Of course it didn't work, I found out nothing about him and I had to go drive Paul home.

 

 

Crush's suck major ass!  I mean all he talks about is Billy.  You would think that he's my twin and is supposed to be my best friend he would see that it hurts me but he doesn't!  URGH Sometimes he makes me soooo mad!  Yet I love him anyway.  ARGH...what is my problem???!!!  I'm so confused!