Maybe I'll go visit Benji today.  I haven't seen him outside of school in awhile.  He told me that he wanted to spend some time with Joel because Joel had been upset lately.  I saw it too and I'm really worried!  I hope everythin's alright.

I wish Benji would ask me to be his boyfriend.  I love him so much and I can tell he loves me too.  I can see it in his eyes when I look at him.  The love is there and its so deep.  Every time I look at him I want to kiss him and I want him to hold me.  I just wish he would tell me how much he loves me.  Right now we're just "friends with advantages" but I want more...I want...LOVE.

I grab my black hoodie and walk outside locking the door behind me.  I climb into my metallic blue 2002 Camero and turn on the music.  Britney Spears starts blaring through the speakers. AHH! Krista must have borrowed my car again. (a/n OK Krista is Billy's sister...I know its not true but hey its a fic!)  I quickly change the station and a Slipknot song comes on.  Ohh...much better!

When I get over the Benji and Joel's house, BEnji is sitting in the den watching t.v. and Joel is off in his room writing again.

"Hey Billy!  I'ts been ahwile since you've been over here!"

"Yeah, I know."

"So what do you want to do?"

"I think you know what I want"

I go over and sit on his lap.  BEnji's face lights up and a big smile spreads across his face.

"Let's go to my room, Joel wont bother us there"

He grabs the remote and turns off the t.v.  I stand upa nd he grabs my hand heading for his room with me in tow.

 

Damnit!  Where's my notebook?  I get on my knee's searching under my bed for it.  AHHH! here it is! I sit down on my bed looking at my notebook.  I thought I lost you!  I shove my notebook under my pillow so no one will find it.  Man am I hungry.

I get up and leave my room heading for Benji's room.

"Yo Benji!  Do you want a burger or something? I'm going..."

I stop talking and stare in disbelief as I watch Benji and Billy totally going at it on BEnji's bed. Tears well up in my eyes and I run out of Benji's room slamming the door on my way out.  I run into my room locking the door after me and flop down on the bed and cry.
 

SLAM! My intense makeout session is terrupted by the slamming of my door.  Oh no! Joel must have walked in on us!  I run out of my room to Joel's room.

"Joel! Open up the door!  Joel! c'mon man what's wrong?!"

Man Joel must really have a crush on Billy or something.  I scarcely hear Billy say "maybe I should go" before leaving.

Whatever, I don't care.  I only care about my brother right now.

"Joel, Billy's gone now LET ME IN!"

He finally comes and opens up the door.

"What's wrong Joel?"

"N-nothing...I-I'm gonna go get food.  L-later..."

"Joel! I'm not letting you leave until you tell me what's wrong!" I scream after him, but I'm too late.  I go in his room and sit down on his bed trying to figure out what's wrong.  That's when I see the corner of a notebook sticking out from under his pillow.