I pull out the notebook from under Joel's pillow and open it up.  I page through it.  I can't believe my eyes.  All I see is pages filled with the words "I hate Billy" written all over them.  I seriously thought and Joel liked Billy.  Boy was I wrong.  But, why did he get so upset when he walked in on me and Billy?  As I am turning the pages I see my name and turn back.  Oh...my, this isn't for real...There in themiddle of the page stand out three words I will never forget. I LOVE BENJI. What...the...hell?!

 

Oh man,what have I done?  BEnji and Joel cant be broken apart...can they?  They are like the closest brothers I have ever met.  And, I feel terrible about Joel.  I know he's jealous but about waht?  I know he hates me.  EVery time he sees me in the hall he glares and me and walkes away.  Maybe I will go try to talk to him.  I know exactly where he will be because BEnji has told me about it many times.

When I get ot eh old abandonded beach I spot Joel right away.  I walk over to him and sit down on the rocks next to him.

 

"What do you want?" he says glaring at me

"I just wanted to make sure your alright.  I really care about you."

He looks over at me with a surprised look on his face.

"You mean, even after I've been completely terrible to you...you still care about me?"

"Of course I do Joel.  I know we haven't really been friends but I know so much about you and I feel your pain."

Tears well up in Joels eyes and I say that.

"Oh Billy, I'm sorry that I have been so mean to you.  I well, I am in love with Benji.  I know it may sound weird to you but its hard to explain. I just...love him.  Then you came along and took him away from me.  I felt so lonely"

"Actually Joel, I know exactly how you feel, I'm sorry too!"

I leaned over and gave Joel and hug. AS we were pulling away I looked Joel straight in the eyes.  WE both stopped moving and then slowly moved back towards eachother. Our lips met vriefly and I pulled away quickly.  The kiss was so magical...but I love Benji!!! Oh no, what and I going to do?!

 

Billy quickly pulls away from the kiss.  I wonder if something is wrong...Then I remember taht he is with Benji.

"I...I am so sorry! Oh God, please don't tell Benji about taht, he'll KILL me!"

"No problem, it was kinda nice."

I stare at Billy in disbelief.  He likes Benji right?  But, cant you like mroe than one person? I mean, don't I like Benji too?  Yet, I find myself falling for Billy. Ah Fuck! confuzzleness!

"C'mon lets go find Benji. i think the three of us need to do some talking." I say standing upa nd heading for my jeep.  Billy gets in his car and we both drive away our minds overflowing with crazy thoughts.