Chapter 17

Caitlin- quotes! i redid the whole story and i added quotes and it looks prettyful! (not redid-edited)

Mimi- if you didn't like the story? why did you keep on reading it?
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Benji and Joel left. Joel thought it would be best for Benji since Iwas so mad. Krista tried talking to me but I wouldn't talk. She cant help me with this. Benji hurt me! I thought he loved me agh!

After Benji and Joel left I just sat on the couch and stared at the wall. I didn't know what to do. I want to be able to help Benji but I don't have enough power! I feel so helpless!

Joel took me back home and sat me on the couch. He kept asking mewhat happened. It was hard for me to tell him because I don't think he knew about everything.

"Benj, you gotta tell me or else it's never going to get resolved."

"Well, earlier when I found out that you liked me I kinda got upset. I couldn't figure out what to do because I know how you feel. I felt something between us too but I loved Billy! I got so confused!And, well, I went back to the drugs I was on last year."

I looked away from Joel not being able to face him. I never told Joel about the drugs before and I am so ashamed of it.

"Well, I kissed another guy. He was a friend of my dealer and he was there and I was so upset. I wanted to tell Billy because I didn't think there should be any secrets between him and I. I realized that I love Billy more than anything in the world! And, well, you know what happened next."

"Benj...I knew about the drugs. It was kind of hard not to you were really obvious last year. You need to stop! You're gonna end up hospitalized soon. With Billy, you just need to let him cool off. He'll realize that you really do love him or else you wouldn't have told him."

I hug my brother. He cares so much its a wonderful feeling having somebody love you.

"I need help Joel, When i get these drug temptations I just cant help myself. Can you help me?"

I try again to get Billy to talk to me. I tried just after Benji and Joel left but he wouldn't talk. He just sat there staring at the wall like a mindless drone.

"Billy, you have to tell me whats wrong. Please?!" I make my best innocent older sister face and when he sees me he smiles.

There are tears in his eyes still. I brush a tear off my younger brother's cheek. I always feel so bad when he is upset. He gets like this every time daddy makes us move.

"Krista..."he says choking back tears,"He kissed someone else. He doesn't love me!"

I let out a breath of relief. Thank God thats all it was! I thought it was something really really serious.

"Oh Billy, just because he kissed another guy doesn't mean he doesn't love you anymore."

"No, you don't understand, he was on drugs when he kissed this other guy. So, he betrayed me and he lied to me. He never told me anything about drugs before! How could he do this!"

"Well Billy, we can help him here but the first thing you have to do is go apologize to Benji. He probably feels horrible about everything and thats why he told you. He showed you just how much he actually does love you by telling you. We'll find a way to help him then. We just have to get past this first hurdle."

He gives me a weak smile and I help him up off the couch. I walk him out to his car and put him in the passenger side. I get in the drivers side and head off towards Benji and Joel's house.

When Benji told me that he used drugs the other day my insides flipped over. I knew he used them before but I didn't know that he was giving in to them again. I should have seen it...I mean the signs were there. I am his brother! What kind of brother am I???

I told him I would get him help. I don't want him getting hurt by these things. After that he just cried in my arms.

I rest Benji on the couch and get up to answer the door. Billy and Krista are standing there. My heart races when I see Krista and I give her a smile. I invite them in and close the door behind them.

"Benji! Baby I am so sorry I freaked out on you like that!" Billy says sitting next to Benji on the couch.

Benji looks up at him in tears and a small smile spreads across his face.

"I am sorry too Billy. I should have told you about the drugs before. I didn't know what I was doing when I was kissing that other guy! I love YOU Billy...I love you so much!"

Krista looks at me with a smile on her face and a twinkle in her eye.

"okay! I know where we can go!" I say catching on to her evil plan...